My Story

I am a pre-op Transsexual Woman and I don't apologize for it one bit I am all WOMAN ,I love Girly things I love To hang out with my girlfriends and have girls night out and play mind games with stupid Men who use the wrong head to think with lol I
am so F ingg tired of living a lie I am all woman Spirit Soul and Mind and I want to be treated as such and taken seriously that I am a real woman I dream as a woman I think as a woman I feel as a woman thus I am all woman and I have known this since the age of 6 I wanted barbies I wanted to play house I wanted pink things I loved the touch of silk and satin and the smell of perfume on myself and wanted to wear a prom dress and be the homecoming queen and wanted to be the picture perfect bride I just wanted to be who I was on the inside not the lie on the outside and now I know this is my cross to carry though my life I just want to be Alicia Neal and be the H#@@ who I am.,
Here is the letter I sent to my family,
To Whom it may concern.
This is just a note to all of my family member as some of you may have known and for some of you may not have known I have been dealing with a lot of things in my 48 years of life. Approximately 4 years ago I attempted to commit suicide I felt as if I was a failure as a person, as a husband and mostly as a father, me and my wife attended counseling at the pastoral institute and during that time I had to bring some things out to my wife and at the time she was shocked but came to realize how deep my personal problems had become, shortly after that happened my daughter was molested by a 15 year old boy at the age of 9 we have gone through a lot with her distrust of boys and she asked why was I going through therapy with momma then we made a decision to tell her why because she begged to know so me and the wife decided to tell her she had a great understanding of my life’s deepest issues . Now I bring it to all of you as of Friday April the th 2008 I am out of the closet as a Transgendered person so if I see you while I am out from now on if you find it embarrassing I will understand .I have decided to live for me and my family of 4 and no one else . And if you ask am I gay by no means I AM NOT GAY but if you consider I love women  then I am Gay  I am just in touch with my feminine side and while out en femme I will be using the name Alicia Nicole Neal I will not use my given last name as not to further your embarrassment . Some of you will now further disown me some will turn your backs on me some will tolerate me some will love me any way but as of now I am going to be me.
Alicia Nicole Neal