Monday, May 30, 2011

Dont Steal Land from Israel

Mr Obama you need to read the word of God not that thing called a Quran or trash this is what you and the others like you fail to see lets read  "18 In the same day the LORD made a covenant with Abram, saying, Unto thy seed have I given this land, from the river of Egypt unto the great river, the river Euphrates:
Gen 15:18 (KJV)" and then go on to read this one"3 And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee: and in thee shall all families of the earth be blessed.
Gen 12:3 (KJV) I don't know what in the Hell your thinking but your making a huge mistake and you have opened us up to a Curse from almighty God in the words of Jessie Duplantis " Repent"

Monday, May 23, 2011

Be In prayer

Be in Prayer for us all as it looks like I might start the Real Life Test run as Alicia for 24/7 and if I do It might be the point of no return for me as I imbark on my life as Alicia Neal

Friday, May 20, 2011

Coming out to more of my old friends

In the Last week or so I have switched one of my Face Books over from my Male name over to Alicia Neal and I know for some it may come as a shock to see a male name on their friends list one week then a Female name the next not to mention a new profile picture to boot . I have come to a point in my life where I can Hide the truth no longer be it friend or Family Lord knows I have hidden this long enough . To some of the friends on that list I deleted before I made the switch because I knew what their views was and will remain ,some can not even picture what it is like to be Trans and some can not handle the thought of continuing a friendship with some one that they thought was one way but was another. I think that the transsexual is a complicated thing for some to handle. There are some in my family that have told me I am falling for the Devils trap and others have told me that I have lost my salvation but my Bible tells me that “

5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

He 13:5 (KJV)” and I know that nothing can separate me from the love of God well enough bible teaching. I can say this that I am becoming more liberated by the I am being who I am on the inside and I over the years I have found this to be true I must be who I am and if that cost me some friends we so be it they was not true friends to begin with and its like getting rid of dead weight and as the past few days have shown me I am finding out who my real friends, are and real friend takes you as you are not how they want you to be.

and true family will not try to make you something that you are not but will help you find out who and what you are. All the others will act like they love you and they will act as if they care but the truth is no one knows what it is like to live and walk in the shoes of another person .We are all our selves and we are not to be some one else we are to be true to who we are  and what we are. When I see people see me wear woman’s tops and I see the looks I get it used to bother me but now I don’t even flinch why I am very comfortable with who and what I am and I am just me.

Love Alicia

Non Trans related But read this

Mr Obama read this you fool,"18 In the same day the LORD made a covenant with Abram, saying, Unto thy seed have I given this land, from the river of Egypt unto the great river, the river Euphrates: 19 The Kenites, and the Kenizzites, and the Kadmonites,
Gen 15:18-19 (KJV) thats not the 1967 borders

Monday, May 16, 2011

Red Dress Movement

The Red Dress Movement

By Alicia Neal

Why is the red dress the symbol of women and heart disease?

In 2003, the National Heart, Lung and Blood Institute (NHLBI), the American Heart Association and other organizations committed to women’s health joined together to raise awareness of women and heart disease. The NHLBI introduced the red dress as a national symbol for women and heart disease

I plan to send this to my mom

Well Mom you needed to see this as I have told you in the past I am Transgendered It is high time you stop living in denial I have been more than patient with you I have tried to get you to see that there is more to me than meets the eye I have become a complicated personality and I have had 2 people living in the same body for years or so I thought I was and always have been in my mind and in my soul a Woman It is like I say I have a Cadillac brain and a VW body  I for years have dealt with this  since I was about 6 years old I have known I was deferent I have been a square Peg trying to fit into a Round Hole when you said the therapist said I had to much mom and not enough dad in me I ask the last therapist what Dr Anderson could have meant by that and she said the same thing to me in other words Mom it is called GID( Gender Identity disorder ) I have suffered that for years I have begged God to fix this for me but He has not as of yet done so ,when you said you believed people was born Gay that set something off in me like a fire storm I to this day cannot figure out why you would believe that and not believe I was born with GID Mom that is just plain denial and a denial of the visible truth what you have failed to realize is that you have had for years a Daughter hidden in the body of your Son There is a book I have been reading and I hope that you can read the same book it is called (True selves) it was written by Mildred L Brown & Chloe Ann Rounsley and I have found it to be very informative book on the subject of Transsexualism and how I have finally found out why I am the way I am. Just as DE DEE and Sandy are Gay I am a Transsexual plain and simple the reason I asked you what would you have named me if I had been born a Girl you told me Alicia Nicole well that is the main reason I have chosen this name.  I hope to one day live 24/7 as Alicia and you will look at me not as your son and see me as your daughter.

Monday, May 9, 2011

To my Mother

I have made my mind up that I am going to be the woman I am regardless of what my mother thinks or feels she has been in a constant state of denial over my being transgender over the years she has said that those who are gay were born gay well I say this to my dear mother I was Born Transgendered like those in the gay community I to have had to deal with those who for their own reasons have come against those they do not understand and for the most part no one in my family has ever understood me well when you have seen as many therapist that I have seen you come to realize that you will go through life as a misfit being a square peg that never really fits into a round hole. To some this may be perceived as being out right mean but I can in no way live a lie,I must live the truth and be who and what I am and that is Alicia Nicole Neal and that is all woman,and yes I can hear the conservative Christians preach their hate and for years I preached the same hate and I did so out of 2 things the denial of who I was and the out right indoctrination of the lack of mercy and grace of Jesus Christ ,and when it says that God loves the world he meant the whole world.16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. 17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
John 3:16-17 (KJV)my pic album 062

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Strange feeling

I know this will sound strange but at times I find myself “Day dreaming” what sex with a normal female body would be like with ether a man or a woman, what kind of sensations would I have with my Vagina and how would I react to the touch of a man or how would I handle the advances of a woman,I also sometimes sit and think what would a date be like with a man, sometimes when I think of what it would be like to be in bed with another woman and to feel to touch of her soft skin next to my soft skin what would that be like ,and what would it feel like to have a man penetrate me and to be inside me and for what it would be like to have a mind blowing orgasm these are the thoughts of a real woman traped inside the wrong body. every time I look at the catalogs I see dresses or outfits that would work great on a date what would I wear under them and what perfume would I wear with the out fit I just want to have sex with a body that I want I want have sex as what I am and that is all 100% woman and I  have a dream of wearing this to bed .s31737redversionand what is so strange is I dream about it all the time I dream of the day that I can wear this for 24 hours so I would be able to have sex at the drop of a hat with nothing on under it well that is the strange feelings I have been having.
Love Alicia Neal aka the Real me